As I was sitting down and reading and gathering information for this post, I realized that I while I tend to keep to myself about the thoughts and feelings I have, I'm not hiding anything from God. He already knows everything I think and everything I feel, and those daydreams I have are no secret either. Have to admit I am a little ashamed about some things. Probably not too pleasing.
So this mess...I know that God has a plan for my life. He has engineered this wonderful, glorious plan for me and I am too impatient to let it come to fruition. I tell myself every day, that when something bad or less desirable happens to me, it's because God wants to mold or shape me somehow, not just let me be heartbroken. He wants good things for me. So I constantly tell myself to trust God with the mess I have once again created. And you would think with my aversion to disarray, I would do this easily....WRONG!
God wants us to praise him in our storms (messes). He collects our tears and holds us tight. He desires a life with us beyond compare. It's just our job to let him work. He is the ultimate manager of life and if we let him take over, good things can happen. He can fix it! It's hard to sit back and wait on his timing for some things. We are required to be open to him, to hear him, and to respond to him. If we can't open our hearts, perhaps that is why the mess is still there.
Today in Church I heard a really good sermon about starting over and how God is fighting for me. He wants me to have a relationship with him that isn't lukewarm. He wants me to be all in, on fire for him all the time. While Kyle was preaching, I was thinking about all the energy I have devoted to changing my physical appearance, and all those daydreams I have placing people in my life that probably don't need to be there. I thought about how exhausted I am keeping up the facade of this mess I am always in. So Kyle told us to work out, press on and dig deep. Now when I heard those phrases, my mind automatically went to some insanity work out video because it's all about putting the work in. If I am willing to work hard on the physical, I should be willing to work harder on the spiritual.
So after the sermon today, I spend the better part of the day cleaning up messes. Literally... like busting out tile to take care of a leak in my shower kind of mess. But while I was doing that, I knew I had to clean the others areas up as well. Physically my body needs exercise and proper nutrition. Spiritually my body needs fed with a lot prayer, worship and bible reading. I need to get intimate with Jesus every single day. I need to be open to him and let him work. Those daydreams? The people I think about? Well I guess if they are supposed to be in my life, God is gonna put them there. No need to think about things I can't control. So I am again making some changes. I am making my inside match my outside. Its time to put the social media hooplah aside, its time to stop checking statuses and being all up inside everyone else's mess. It's time for me to mind my own messy and get it cleaned up!
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose
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