I think sometimes we get so wrapped up in others; in playing a role, in helping them to prove ourselves worthy of love, of acceptance, of all of it. We FORGET how we should be treated. We forget we deserve the very same time, love and respect we pour into others. The sad realization that we are a pawn in the game of life to some is heartbreaking. Its utterly shattering. And sometimes those broken slivers stay hidden for a while but they work themselves to the surface and bring pain. Sometimes the pain doesn't go away. Sometimes it lingers to remind us to push forward and not go backwards to the very thing that broke us. You cannot truly repair broken glass. It may go back together but the mark is left. The scar. The only way to truly repair it is to replace it. A new beginning.
And beginning a new, replacing, does not mean the slivers are gone. Gentle reminders will linger. A lie. A picture. A broken promise. They will be there to prompt you to think twice before going back to the place, the person, the thing that caused the break.
You can't put a band-aid on a broken heart. You can't ignore it and wish it away. You have to feel. You have to marinate in it. You are worth it. You deserve the very best you give others. Feel the sadness. The heartbreak. The slivers. And then rise above it. See yourself as God does.
But God...Jesus loves us and chooses us. Quit chasing what isn't yours. Chase Jesus! If it's meant to be, it will be. Whatever is designed for you will be running alongside you with eyes on Jesus and eventually your paths will intersect.
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