Second Saturday...
I woke up early and I don't feel good. My stomach isn't well today. I woke up and couldn't breathe again. After a night with a couple good friends sharing insight and wisdom and laughing and praying I fell asleep peaceful. But I woke up. I woke in knots. I woke up scared, yearning to text or call you. Yearning to do something. But the pain is real today. Today? I'm not doing today.
Yesterday was good. I had the kids. Jennifer brought them to me. Addie is so very precious and I love all of those kids. I think they know. I think they realize you're ending this. I think they realize you're tossing me aside for something better. If that better is you healing, I am all for it...
You picked them up. You smiled. You made conversation. You hugged. You did it all. I'm still here and I still love you. I still want us. The mind space I have is so messed up. Peace. Be still. Grace. That's what people are getting. I hope I'm still listening. Only God can do this...
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