Letters to him...

Tuesday...

I passed you again this evening. AJ and I were out messing around and we both saw your truck. He swears you were on the phone and didn't notice. I read a quote this evening that just encompasses everything. "Sometimes memories sneak out of eyes and roll down my cheeks."  How so very true. Every time I close my eyes, I think of you. I can feel you laying next to me. I can see you in my dreams. Don't throw this away...

I have so much to tell you without saying a word. Watch my example. See my actions. Don't throw in the towel on something you know is good.

I am tired. I am worn out. The mental exhaustion is the worst because you can't escape it. It's there when you close your eyes and again when you open them. How long are we going to do this ignoring each other? We are only hurting each other more. Call me. Text me. Message me. Even just one word. That way I know you are thinking of me. I think of you all the time. I'm giving you space. I was told that was best. But in this time of space, please work on us. Please hear the words I said over and over and know I love you and would endure a lot more.